Mother Guilt.

Oh my. I felt so bad this morning. Usually, Sam wakes up once or twice a night, fusses, one of us gets up and puts his pacifier back in (bad habit, I know, but we need the sleep...) So last night Sam woke up at about 4 AM, fussed, pacifier in, back to sleep. Then this morning again around 6, his usual time, I went in and held him, rocked him, and put him back to bed for a bit, fast asleep. When I got him up and changed his diaper, he was in a poop-filled diaper. His bottom was BRIGHT red with diaper rash. When did he do this??? I felt so horrible. He screamed while I cleaned him up. I used a lukewarm washcloth, blotted him, and coated him w/ Aquaphor and other stuff we have (I rotate w/ prescription stuff, OTC stuff, etc.etc. when he had diarrhea a few weeks ago.) Anyway, my heart dropped. If I knew he was poopy, I would've changed him! At any time of the night! His bottom was perfectly healthy and white last night when he went to bed. Now he's completely raw. Poor baby. I'm doing cloth diapers today and changing as often as possible to keep him dry and comfortable. He was even fussing to sit, so I gave him a little Tylenol. UGH. Has anyone else ever done this? My heart hurts. I cried. I know it sounds dumb, but I feel like it's my fault. And I know that if diaper rash is my biggest issue right now, then I should be thankful. But I hate seeing my little guy in pain. Poor baby. :(